Tues

Dear Diary,

Wow, I can't believe it has been a whole three months since I last wrote. Quite a lot has been going on around here.

I would like to document that the last week of May I was on my way to falling asleep when a woman said to me, " I have been missing for 12 years." Then followed up with images of water. It was very deep water and she was showing me the ocean. I remember waking up and shaking my head wondering if that was all I was going to get before laying back down. Nothing came and soon I was asleep.

The next morning at breakfast my daughter told me about her dream of a women who had come to talk to her and it had something to do with water. We compared notes and decided we had talked to the same women but neither of us got anything more. All I can remember is that it seemed like it was around the date that she was missing.

Thurs

Dear Diary,

Well, it seems that just when I turn another corner and think I know what is on the other side I get another wonderful surprise. One of my goals in this lifetime is to learn how to connect mind, body and spirit so that I can navigate with a little more ease.

It seems that a lot has been coming through in my twilight and in dream time bringing together the lessons that I learn in this life and how they connect to the growth of my soul. I love learning from my teachers on the other side as they teach with movies and sound showing me the lessons and explaining how things work. It is such a beautiful experience.


I am still seeing the white mist move through the house or right in front of me when I am sitting at the computer. And yes, it is in brad daylight. I don't have to have the lights off to see, hear and feel..

In the last few months I have been working with two organisations and still seeing my clients the Fort Worth "Acupuncture Clinic" a couple of days during the week.

Still no contact with my father and grandmother but my Mom has assured me that they are with her in CA. I am happy that they were with me as I needed them in my time of transition this last year. I must say that I never would have planned my life this way but I am very happy with the way it is.

The week has been tremendous with old friends calling and wanting to catch up all week. I must admit that I am enjoying catching up. So many things happening for the greater good.

Sun

What is it like to feel your spirit? It is amazing! I have had the opportunity on several occasions to feel what it is like to be in the spirit energy and yes it was by accident.

Once when I was 18 and was afraid when I was on a plane in Jamaica that was about to take off and I heard very clearly, " Ana, this is what it feels like when you die so you wont be afraid when it is your time". With that I felt like someone placed a warm tingly blanket over me and this massive amounts of unconditional love move all through my body and out through the pours of my skin.

It all happened so quickly that there was no chance to question and it felt like nothing on this earth to be connected to that massive amount of love. Then as quickly it went away and I sat there in bliss through the whole flight.....

It happened again when I was knitting in my living room and then realized that I was several feet above my body in this massive amount of love... There were other times that it happened when I was very sick but the last time I was doing a relaxing meditation and found myself exiting out of my heart Chakra. It was then when I had made an amazing discovery that it feels really good to be in spirit energy and that it lives on without the body.

I was talking to someone who had recently lost someone and was trying to explain why I have come to feel the way I do about the transition soul makes in death. And then I realized that it was because of the many times I left my body in full consciousness and experienced what it is like to be in that energy form.

I am not saying that death is so much better as I believe that life is an education and a beautiful reward. I know in my own heart that life is the true test and growth of the soul. But it is also a wonderful gift when we remember who we really are which is completely unconditional Love.

Fri

Dear Diary,

Wow, this morning I was working in the house and unloading dishes around 8am from the dishwasher when I looked up to some lady peaking around the corner looking at me. I stopped in my tracks watching her watching me work when she desolved in thin air.

It was not more then ten minutes later that I was in the bathroom hanging a bath towel up when I noticed someone walking past the doorway to the bedroom. I caught sight of the arm and the hand and the side of the body walking past. She seems to be a little younger than me in her mid thirties. Not sure why she is so bold to show herself like that in full view. She looks like a hologram so it is a little startling. I know there is no one else in the house and the kids are still asleep in their beds.

Something else I noticed is that my father has not been coming around as much as he used to. He has been with me for the past two years but in the last month I have been feeling a since of him leaving. I seem to have this knowing in my heart that he is leaving and will not come back to visit as much. He is moving on with his own soul evolution on the other side and letting go of much in this lifetime. It is done what he needed to do on this earth.

I am glad that he was with me to help me get though my own grief and move on with my life with an understanding of being comfortable with the transition we all make when we leave our bodies.

Wed

Dear Diary,

I don't even know where to begin. I have been having a lot going on in the physical world but also in the spirit world to. Last night I was out with my husband and a dear friend and her little grandson watching him play when one of his past lives flashed before my eyes. It is like watching a full movie and I caught myself looking at the top of his head and out past his physical body seeing the beautiful white light that was stuffed into this tiny body.

Wow, such a huge soul in a little body and far way form the time, place and activities of the other life. Later that evening I asked my guides in twilight about the little boy and they shared a little to share with my friend that would help him.

This morning I was busy working when I received a phone call from my friend. We chatted and after awhile she asked what I saw. It took me a minute to remember and then it came flooding back... I told her what I saw and shred what the guide had told me which she thanked me for. As I sat there thinking about our conversation I realized that this happens all the time but I don't speak up and share what I get or see. I just file it away or forget. Something I need to work on..

Sun

Dear Diary,

Yesterday I heard a sizzle as I reached for the Chi to style my hair. My thumb had touched the hot part of the Chi and I dropped it. As the pain of the burn raced through my body telling me that something had happened I heard "Quick go get the Lavender Oil!"

I rushed over to where I keep the oils and quickly dowsed my thumb with Lavender and told myself that I did not burn myself. This is an old trick my father used to try to teach me to fool the body and heal quicker... Within minutes the pain went from a throb to a light feeling of pain. Thirty minutes later there was no sign of pain and today as I examine my thumb there is no sign of the burn.

Last night was one of my veggie nights on the couch in the living room. As I sat there watching an old movie. I noticed some white smoke moving across the living room. I really didn't think anything about it except that I had the feeling of getting up and going to work. When my brain kicked in I realized that I had some free time to myself and that did not make since at the time and I dismissed it.

Later on I had these memories of this wood framed house and the rooms that were in it. I was all into it until my brain kicked in and said, "wait a minute! I have never been in a house like that!" I dismissed it and continued my movie, when I had the urge to go into the kitchen as my dinner was waiting for me which was a French fish dish. I started to move when I realized that no one was in the kitchen I had no clue what the dish was? "OH!" I had someone in the room with me sharing some of their memories with me!"

I told my husband what had happened and if something happened then he would know what was going on. Nothing else happened until this morning when I was having my tea with my husband in the living room and my eyes got this misty cloudy white smoke in them and everything looked fuzzy... "No", I am not doing that", I said and I got up and decided to write in my diary...

Wed

Dear Diary,

I seem to be watching a lot of shifting going on around me. As I watch I also am experiencing my own shift within. It seems that so many are moving through old baggage that they thought was long gone only to find it hitting them in the face as the cells of the body are still holding on to old patterns.

For many it is a wake up call as these mental emotions manifests in their physical being bringing on health issues that bubble up to the surface. I am watching as people are looking at what needs to be changed in their lives and some are letting go with instant results as other struggle with the mere fact letting go of it.

As I watch people struggle and I examine my own life I see that just wanting to let go of something is not as easy as it might seem. It is a release that you know for sure that a much higher power is going to catch you and so much boils down to the simple truth of "Trust".

It is what is on the other side that many of us forget and that is the an amazing amount of unconditional love and no fear in the past, present and future. I often find my thoughts moving over a situation that I had no control of or something that I wish had not happened but when I am aware of these thoughts and the emotions that stir within my own body I acknowledge it as a experiences and let the thought drift away with the emotions that were attached only to later recall it without the strong emotions.

I am not saying that if there was a lesson that I didn't remember it. I am saying that it was remembered without the judgement and the note not to do that again. Kind of like touching a hot stove....This allowed me to stop punishing myself and others because of a past experience. Forgiveness + letting go= Love & Healing of the soul!

Fri

A few days ago I had this feeling of extreme sadness that overwhelmed me and stopped me in my tracks. What ever I did I could not shake this feeling of loss. I called my Mom on the phone the next morning and she confessed that she was also experiencing this feeling of great sadness. I hung up with her and tried to give it no thought as I went about my day but it kept coming back.

It was a few hours later that it came in very loud and clear... Two years ago my father passed away. I had completely forgotten since I have a close connection with him on this side. But somehow my body had remembered the grief that I experienced that week of his death when I had no connection during his transition in the after life. So when the time frame came back around my body replayed those old emotions like an alarm clock. When I realized where the sadness was coming from I called Mom..

Once we both were able to link the sadness and the deep feeling of loss to his death it broke the sadness that we both carried in our hearts. We told my Dad that we were happy that he was watching over us. Both of us were able to move on with our day without any pain of loss in our hearts after we talked... In the end it turned out to be a lovely experience and I was blessed to be able to share with my parents one on this side and one on the other side...

Thursday

Yesterday was amazing, as I got to work with someone and do a Reiki attunement. Later I got to work with some of my friends doing a Blessing. The amount of energy that ran through my body seemed to clear anything that had been stuck in the last week. I loved it as I woke up this morning very clear in my thoughts and nothing left on my heart. It was like waking up new!

When you run energy through your energy centers located in your body it helps clean out a lot of baggage that can cause you to get stuck or may manifest in the body a physical illness. It is kind of like getting an oil change in your car only it relines the mind with the body and the body with the spirit. When this is in line you are able to feel more present in the moment... Lovely!

Monday night when I was in the bathroom taking a bath I noticed these green, yellow and purple colors in a misty state trying to take shape in the door way. I watched it for sometime trying to make it out. It finely vanished but I kept my eye on the door way thinking I would see something but to my disappointment it didn't come back.

Last night on my way to bed I walked through someone standing in my room on my side of the bed. It is funny that I see them but by the time I realize what it is I am already moving out the other side. Then my brain comes on saying,"You just passed through someone!".... I know!!!

Sunday

Dear Diary,

Well you can't imagine what has been going on.. This week there has been a lot to process. Our groups are growing and doing well. I love the beautiful people who come into my life and share their talents and gifts. And even though we have had a lot of ice and snow for our Texas region I was still able to keep in touch.

Last night was a little strange.. I dreamed of my father and he seemed to have a message for me. I woke up with my heart pounding in my chest and realized that it was dreaming. I allowed myself to center and move the pounding from my heart to move out of my body. I went back to sleep with the same message playing over and over.

I must say I did not like what I was getting so when my husband woke up I played it by him. He was very clear on what I was getting and I knew he was right. I needed to rethink some things and take care of some things in my life or my life would be a little more difficult. Nothing big but a good lesson for me to learn. I learned in the past when I didn't listen I would always get burned so to speak.

I was coming up to make some choices and it seems that my father had some idea of my past habits and knew that I needed to focus on a few things in my own life. It felt good that my father on the other side was helping and my husband on this side was supporting me. Now all I need to do is grow in the loving space that they held for me as they cheered me on.

Sat

Dear Diary,

It has been a little strange around the house. My family and I were snowed in a few days this week and so we watched a few movies on the TV. Yesterday as we settled in and I was sipping my hot tea when a huge blob of white smoke moved through me and past me as I sat in my favourite chair. I told my family that someone had just passed through me but I did think it was strange that they deliberately did it.

The night before I was taking a bath and again this same white smoke which is different from steam because it has the white color lifted off of me and moved to the ceiling. Nice I thought.... How long has that been attached to me? With the energy shifting it seems that they are getting a lot more bolder. I have been really busy with working on the new Wellness Community to pay the attention I need to.

Just a note... It is like telling the difference between smoke from fire and steam it is different when it is a ghost....and you know the difference it is not the same.. if that helps?

Twilighting in the morning is still happening and I am really grateful to have that insight and thoughts on things that I need to work on in my own life. At this time there is lots of releasing of old thinking, patterns and energy. The new energy is amazing as it clears the way for new things to open up in our lives...

Thurs

Dear Diary,

I have noticed that in the last three days since we have been having our ice storm I have felt these waves of energy moving through my whole body. At around 2pm I can hardly keep my eyes open and have to lay down and take a nap. It is during this that I feel this wave of electrical current move down through my crown and all through my chakras.

It is not painful but quite pleasant and with it has a rocking sensation like floating on a wave pool. I noticed that I am out for about 20 minutes and then wake up feeling refreshed. This has also been happening when I am drifting off to sleep at night and I can't help but surrender to the motion and lovely sensation pulsing all through my body.

Last night I had wanted to wait for my son to come in who was studying with a study group and so I kept fighting to stay awake but the wave kept trying to take me off. Finely my husband came in from being out with friends and said he would wait up and I allowed myself to drift off in the motion.

Tuesday night a dear friend called and said that she had heard that we were going through a transition with the last eclipse and equinox. She said that on this time around the first of February there is a celebration called 'Candlemas. I wonder if this energy has anything to do with that as it was about the time that this sensation of energy started to happen. I had something like this happen around 2007 when I started to wake up and see....

Mon

Friday, a dear friend and I made a trek up to Dallas to see a Medium whom I had heard about. I wanted to meet her and learn more about her gifts. The best way to learn is to meet cold and have a reading.

We arrived early at the location where she worked and sat down to wait for her to show up. We saw her arrive and waved as she was very sociable sitting down to do the reading. She immediately started to draw and write on several sheets of paper as she talked to the spirits that came to chat.

What was fun was that she picked up right away on my Grandmother and Father who hang out a lot with me and my family. I know that they have crossed but they check on us from time to time leaving us signs that they have been by. I am guessing that I need all the help I can get in this life time and happy when they stop by.

Since I did not know this lovely lady from Adam she had no way of knowing about them. I loved that my Dad was happy to chime right in and talk about some of the things that I was worrying about and letting me know that it was OK. Because he comes to visit I knew that he had been trying to let me know that I was moving through some of the life lessons that needed to be experienced but it was fun to have another to validate what I knew and so right on the mark.

But the real kicker was when she drew a picture that was on the wall next to my bed and said that I kept looking at that thinking that I want to be like that. The truth is that when things get to be really busy in our lives that we don't have a moment to ourselves I do look at the painting of a sail boat that my father painted and dream of sailing off around the world getting some R&R. It is just a little dream of mine that not even my husband knows about except me and the spirit world.

I really enjoyed talking to her as she was the real deal and I have heard that celebrities will fly out to talk to her. My friend was also impressed and we both went away talking about our experience. I hope that we will get to meet up with her again but for now it is nice to know that she is right here close by.....

Thursday

Dear Diary,

I must say that last Sat when I awoke and sat up in bed I saw a white smoke move across the room. The same happened Sunday morning. I thought it was Odd but did not think much about it. It was not until after the meeting on Monday night with the new circle that I realized that something had changed and so many flashes and smoke seemed to move around the house. Nothing threatening but I was aware that my energy had moved to a higher level and I was more aware of the activity.

Yesterday was amazing I had morning tea with a dear friend and we had a wonderful conversation about the up coming Circle and how it is forming. As I was leaving to have lunch in Arlington we both saw a penny laying on the floor. She stooped and picked it up handing it to me and I of course said, Thank you Dad" knowing that he was hanging close by as we visited.

So much happening yesterday as I was talking to some really light filled people. I must admit that I had a hard time calming my own energy down before dropping off to sleep but when it did it came swift. I found myself dreaming of going to school listening to a lecture, busy taking notes and getting ready to be tested.

Fri

Dear Diary,

A few weeks ago my daughter called me from school to tell me about a dream and her experiences that she was having at her dorm. As she started to tell me about what happened I could see a cloud of smoke move across the ceiling and I caught the shadow of someone walking past the door to another room.

Hmmmm... I agreed as I listen on the phone about her description of the things that were happening. Her concern when she called was that the ghost had communicated in a dream that they were going to pay me a visit. I told her that it looked like I had someone already paying me a visit but thanks for the warning.

I have to say that I have not had any other contact with the ghost but I am wondering that it may be that I have been so occupied with learning about a new modality so my complete attention has been focused on that. I am thinking as I write this that I need to pay a little attention to the poor ghost that came as they seem to need help.

My daughter had explained that they were looking for someone and that I might be able to help them find them so that they can cross to the other side.

Fri

Dear Diary,

Today was a lovely day getting together with friends that I have not seen in awhile. It was when I returned home after enjoying nice visit for lunch that I received a phone call from another friend who said I needed to stop at Half Priced books and pick up a copy of the "The Physics of Miracles" by Richard Bartlett, DC, ND. They said that they were there and picked up a copy and there was one book left.

Since I had not had a chance to visit with my husband I asked if he would drive me across town to pick it up. We got there and I walked to the back of the store to the section that my friend said it was in only to run into another person that I know who was working there.

He smiled at me and said that he had been waiting for me. It took me by surprise and I asked him how so? "Oh", he said, " I had a dream about you last night and you came into the store and walked straight to the back to this section and was going to tell me something." Smiling, I said that I was looking for a book and that a lot of my friends were talking about it. I told him that many of my friends had taken a seminar but the book had a lot of the information that was taught in the class.

We searched and found it but to my surprise there were two books instead of only one. I laughed and told him my friend said that there was only one copy left. He picked it up and opened it up. The Chapter that he opened to was called, "Trust What Ever Shows Up in the Moment". "Hmmm....., he said " I think this other copy was meant for me".

We said goodby and I want on my way and he went on his. Did I meantion that I had not seen him in at least 6 or 7 months since it had been awhile that I had been in that store location?

Wed

Wow, Diary a whole week has passed and I can"t tell you how busy I have been. It is amazing working in both worlds and finding others so much like you. So much happening....

Monday I was in an evening meeting and had received a message to share with our Wellness Community that morning in Twilight. As I was telling the group what I got another person across the room raised her hand and had received the same message. She completed what I had left out but the message was the same. But here is what makes it unique... It was exactly the same story word for word....

Another day I was working with a client with Reiki and was leaving the session. As I walked out of the room. I thought of someone and in an instant I felt like that person was there with me. It was so strong and I had forgotten what that persons essence felt like. I knew almost immediately that that person was thinking about me to.

You get this when you are in a room and have your back turned away from the door and someone you know walks in and you know who it is.... That is how I would describe it. I had lunch with a friend later that day who I shared the experience with and they knew who I was talking about which they knew that that person was thousands of miles away on a trip that week... It was fun to know when others are thinking about you to even far away...

Tonight we are starting a serious called "Healing Lost Souls" by William J. Baldwin, PH.D. It will be amazing as we get to learn more about energy and how to release spirits who are trapped in between worlds in more in-depth study....

Wed

Dear Diary,

I was awakened in the middle of the night and turned over listening to my husband snore. It was then that I heard someone say close to my ear, "good night". It was a male's voice and the thought came, Oh how sweet that Steve told me good night. As I lay there feeling good about it I realized that he was still snoring and facing the other direction.

Hmmmm...... If he was asleep and no one was awake except me.... Then who said Good night? I took just a second to realize that it was my guide. "Good night", I said and turned over trying for sometime to go back to sleep.

Mon

Today I woke up in a mood and was unable to get out of it. I was irritated at every little thing and tried to stay away from others who would cross my path and in my range of irritation. I tried to shake it into the earth. I even washed myself in the light and sunshine but to no avail.

Now, you think it is bad being around a person in a bad mood but try being the person stuck in that energy form. I even told my husband that my bones had anger in them. Kind of like having the ache in the bones from the flu. It was then when I was describing my symptoms that it downed on me that the emotion was caught in my body was not mine.

With this single thought it came to me that that I had spent most of the day trying to find what was causing me to be so angry. I just woke up like that. They call it, "waking up on the wrong side of the bed" or in my line of work a "spirit attachment". Oh!!!!

So the next action was to sit quietly and ask myself if I was OK. The answer was "yes" as I accessed my energy field and looked for any trace of a foreign energy within my body. There it was and it was not happy that I found it. Smiling, to myself I asked it what it wanted and it did not respond. Mmmmmm.... this may take some work but was guided immediately to do a release prayer that I was taught in my Akashic training.

As I started to say the prayer I heard someone say, "it is me and I choose not to leave." With this statement it confirmed that I had picked up a spirit attachment. I then said the prayer asking God to remove and release this being into His care. As I repeated the prayer the third time I felt a release and that feeling of stepping into a soothing bath as the emotions of anger dropped away and a feeling of peace and lightness took over knowing that it was gone.

I checked once again in my body and energy field to see if anything was still there.. Nothing, it was gone and I spent the rest of the afternoon without any interference of irritation or anger. Nice to be back to myself. Where ever I was in my dreams last night I must have brought home a visitor. Next time I will have to be more careful not to talk to strangers...