Friday

Dear Diary,

I am having a wonderful time visiting my family in LA and spending Thanksgiving with them. Yesterday I saw a lot of spirit activity around my mom when we sat down that morning in her dinning room. The spirits around her home seem to be interested and enjoying our conversations. Later in the afternoon went over to my sister's home for dinner and I didn't see any activity. I am guessing there was to much going on for them as we all stayed downstairs. Spirits are just funny that way.

Tomorrow I am on my way home and will be flying back to Texas. One of the situations that always hits me when I have to opportunity to fly is that I am aware that there is really nowhere that spirits don't seem to hang out. All the airports have passengers from the other side and are also packed with energy beings that are attached to people aura's who are boarding or exiting the airplane. It can be quite a production watching people interact with the beings around them. Most of them are completely unaware they have a whole entourage of spirits following them around.

The other thing that I find interesting when flying is watching the energy of all the passengers on the plane merge together in a flowing rainbow of colors as everyone is packed closely together. Yes, they are still separate but there is a place in their auras where they knit together creating a ray of light that is a sequence of colors depending on
the persons who sit next to each other.

One of my teachers used to tell me that it is rude to watch people's auras but I find them to be so beautiful that I can't help myself. When I am in a confined space such as airplane it is hard to change what I am observing around people's energy field. Eventually I came to the conclusion that if I wasn't reading them or making any judgments then it was okay to watch the colors that moved and changed in another person's energy field.

Wednesday

Dear Diary,

I have been enjoying my visit with my family and most of the time I am so engrossed with the physical activity that is going on around me I forget to be aware of the spirits. On a few occasions at my mom's house some of the spirits have been so bold in making themselves known by walking in between us when we are visiting. When they do this I have to take a moment to refocus on the conversation so as not to be rude in blurting out that someone had just walked in between us.

On the other hand when I arrived in LA I had swept through my sister's home not feeling or even noticing any spirit activity until last night when I went upstairs to put something away. As I was concentrating on my task I felt something across my neck and then several pairs of curious eyes watching me. It was kind of like having a small audience watching me as there were quite a few spirits in the room with me. Since I was in a hurry to rejoin the rest of the family downstairs I didn't stop to talk.

The whole experience kind of caught me a little off guard as I hadn't noticed the activity during my other visits to the house. Later on I also saw glowing orbs when I was watching one of the security camera's that only reaffirmed what I had felt earlier. This morning I mentioned it to my mom and she said that she already knew that they were there. I had to laugh as the spirits were a lot like the one's who visited me back home. I have noticed that sometimes when there is a lot of physical activity going on in the house they often retreat upstairs to get a little peace and quite from all commotion of the living. 

Monday

Dear Diary,

I  am having a wonderful time visiting my family in LA. I flew out this past weekend to LA to go to my sister's birthday party. It has been a great getting to see everyone and spend some real quality time with all my family that live in LA.We all had a great time dressing up as the theme was the Great Gatsby and was held at one of the hotels in Hollywood. All I have to say is that it was a true celebration of life.

While I am here I am able to stay with both my mom and sister. But it was while I was at my mom's house and we were visiting in her living room when I saw an image of a man walk into her bedroom. There was no one else in the house except for us and I paused in our conversation to ask her if she know about the spirit I just saw. She didn't blink an eye but said she was very familiar with the gentleman who I had just seen. He liked to make his presence known around her home. Laughing to myself we continued on with with our conversation as if not skipping a beat. 

          

The next day we were at her home and again deep in catching up on our busy lives when I started to see lots of spirit activity behind her. She didn't seem to notice or care so I just tried to ignore it as we continued talking. The activity at one time got to be very intense as it was several different spirits moving around her and looked as if they were trying to materialize. As we got more into our conversation I started to avert my eyes away from the scene trying hard to focus on what we were talking about. After a while I forgot about them until something reminded me to look up and when I did there was nothing behind her. 

This morning when I woke up I knew that I wasn't alone as I was thinking to myself about different things that had happened the day before. That was all fine except every now and then I would hear someone in the room putting in their two cents making commits about what I was thinking. There wasn't anything alarming in what they said, just silly commits as if they were trying to be funny. They were funny but I needed to stay focused on what I was thinking about so I ignore them. With the time change and a very busy schedule I didn't have time to sit around and be silly. I needed to make a quick phone call back to my family in Texas. 

Friday "Soul Contracts"

Dear Diary,

I am so excited as I get to see and visit with my family this weekend. My little sister is celebrating one of those monumental birthdays that lands on one of those special decades in her life. I am so happy to be apart of the celebration as it brings all of us together and helps us cherish our lives together as a family.

This also brings to mind of a conversation that I had with a dear friend the other day about soul contracts. We were talking about our relationships in our lives and she asked the question, if we were stuck with our soul contracts. The answer I had to say was yes and no, as we as liner thinkers we often think in terms of black and white. But when it comes to the soul, the lines can be blurred from what we understand.

Yes, we do have contracts with our families and the incredible people in our lives but we also have the freedom of our own personal wills. We each show up for each other in our lives but what can be blurred is how we learn the lesson. Meaning that when a lesson is learned by one or many then the contract can move in another direction. We all have the ability to influence each other as a soul group that came with that mission to learn that particular lesson. The purpose of the contract is to create a space or environment to learn and to have the opportunity to interact with each other as needed by the soul or group of souls to evolve. That is why it is so important to work together as a team in finding the combination to unlock it.

What I like about the soul contracts is that once one is able to catch on to the lesson it can then be passed down through the generational pool and also on to others who are participating in it. It is an incredible way of interactive learning. When I talk to most people they seem to see it as a "set in stone" way of working but in reality it is so much more complicated than that. I would use the analogy of looking at a painting vs. playing a video game. While you can say they are both pictures, one is still and the other is constantly changing.

What you can see that is constant in each soul contract are the players, the lesson or the goal that is needed to achieve, to go to the next level. This is how the contract is created and experienced as we all move through the evolution of the soul. 

Wednesday "The Spirit Visitor"

Dear Diary,

I did my best to help the spirit cross who was attached to the rooster painting the other day but she would have none of that. At one point when I was trying to communicate with her I got an vivid image of an elder women with a sunken face etched in my mind's eye. This image didn't seem to match up to what I had gotten earlier that day, so it took me some what by surprise. Every once in a while when I see smokey images of spirits moving around the house I get impressions of what they look like if the spirit doesn't materialize into a human form. Such was the case of this spirit and what I got didn't match up. It was almost a little scary.

Confused I asked my guides if I was talking to the wrong spirit. They graciously informed me that she was still in some way attached to her physical body and was making an appearance of what it looked like now in the grave. The other flash that I got before was her energy body that was still holding on to what she looked like before she died. In that case, I had caught her off guard when I saw her and she didn't have the time to make a conscious impression of what she looked like. "Great," I thought, "No wonder people can be afraid of seeing spirits if they sometimes show themselves decomposing in their graves."

What I understand and I have experienced is that spirits are intelligent and they are also conscious. It is because of this that they have the ability to manipulate and change their energy and sometimes the energy around them. Meaning they have the ability to change the way they appear to the living. When someone first dies they don't always know how to do this but after awhile they get the hang of it. It is a learning process unless they go directly into the light. Trust me when thinking about it, when I die and if for some reason decide to stay close to this dimension, I plan to show up as a long lagged goddess instead of a decomposing corpse.

After refusing to transfer over into the light she didn't interact a lot with me. She did however take a little notice of me when I was on the computer writing but when I would look up she would vanish into thin air. The white smokey image seems to be easy for them.  I blocked the other image from my mind. To some degree I know she knows I not only can see her but can sense and feel her in the room with me so she tends to make herself scares. I do however think that she is curious of what I am doing. As time goes by she may become board of what is happening around the house or even find a different doorway that moves her somewhere else. In the meantime I am happy to have her visit.   

Monday " A Spirit Attachment"

Dear Diary,

This weekend we were hanging out with the kids and even got to go to breakfast with our grandfather. On the way home from grandpa's house I saw an an estate sale sign and thought it would be fun to go. I turned the car around and kidnapped my family so that we could all look around together. My son and I had a wonderful time looking at all the antiques at the sale. My husband and daughter were not really into looking at all the things and wanted us to hurry up. I did however find a small painting of a rooster that I really liked that was hanging up in the breakfast room near the kitchen. As I was going from room to room I tried my best not to think about it but I kept seeing it in my minds eye hanging up in my kitchen, so I bought it.

Excited about my purchase, I hastily asked my husband to hang the painting on the wall in our breakfast room that is attached to the kitchen as soon as we got home. If fit perfectly in with all the decor of the room and the rest of the day I couldn't help walking by to admire it. It wasn't until much later after dinner when I was walking through the room where the roster painting was hung that I noticed the white smokey shape that was hanging out by the painting. In my hurry I had forgotten to cleanse the energy of the painting before hanging it up. I knew instantly that I had brought home a spirit attachment and had caught her admiring the painting on the wall. As I watched the smokey image she seemed to notice me and very quickly started to dissipate into thin air. I chuckled knowing that I had placed the painting in the same room that she had it hanging in her home.

Side note- Later in the afternoon I intend to ask my guides if we need to help her cross over into the light. It is always their choice and with the help of the guides and angels they can usually help the spirit to move on.

Spirits are just like people and can be attached to material objects. Ever know someone who loved their car or had a ring that was theirs and they wore it all the time? Something else to know is that attachments don't necessarily have be objects, it can be a person or even an animal that they loved dearly. Just because the person died, who had a fondness or even loved something doesn't mean that it changes when they die. When this happens, it good to recognize that the spirit may be holding on to this side because of the attachment. This is when it is important to find a way in either helping them move on or if you are comfortable sharing the item with them.

If for some reason you forgot to cleanse an object like I did, then I would recommend talking to the spirit and just letting them know that you are going to take care of the item or what it is they are holding on to. You can then pray or use Reiki symbols over the item or even covering it in white and golden light. This will help clear the item. Often the spirit will release whatever it was they were attached to as the energy vibration changes and they not able to hold on to the new energy.

If the spirit is attached to a person then it is important to find someone who does spirit release to help them move on, as it isn't healthy for either the spirit or the person they are attached to. I would also recommend to do this with animals as the spirit will drain the energy from the animal to.

Friday

Dear Diary,

Yesterday evening I had the opportunity to attend a blessing circle that two of my friends have been hosting for the past four years. It had been several years since I had been to one. When I contemplated on it, I felt a strong urge to go. That was my cu
e that it was something that I needed to do. All three of us are blessing givers and when it was time to stand up to give blessings, I felt honored to be among the others who also showed up for the event.

It only took a little more than an hour, as the Blessing givers laid their hands upon the people who came to receive the blessings. The blessings are different for each person. Just a note- It is not the intention of the blessing givers to control the blessing but to stand in unconditional love as they channel the flowing energy that comes through them that is between the person receiving the blessing and the Creator.

What I have experienced is that some people feel amazing things and have incredibility visions. Some may even laugh and giggle as they feel light and tingly all over. Then there are others who don't feel anything at all or may experience something later on. What is taught is not to judge the outcome of a blessing as there is no right or wrong between the Creator and the person who receives the blessings of how it is perceived.

On a different note- I want to bring up something that I have noticed. When interpreting dreams if you dream about a house then it usually represents the dreamer. On the physical level what I am noticing as I began to do more light work with the light work community. I can feel that there are things shifting in the energy of our home. I know that it is not the house that is shifting, it is us, as we change our energy levels within the house. As this energy comes in, it begins to open up new doors and what is attracted to the energy.

Wednesday " Out of Body"

Dear Diary,

It has been very quiet
around the house lately. Since I have been really focusing most of my time and energy on the book I have not experienced or seen a lot of activity around the house. That does not mean that I haven't been visited by spirits while I was trying to fall asleep.

During twilight the other night I did see a monk from the dark ages dressed in a long brown rob with a hood just before I was about to fall into a sleep state. He appeared to me as he was on a walk on his way to somewhere. It was snowing all around him and he was looking directly at me. In that moment I could see some of the details of his face. He had gray eyes with a curly white beard. He had a straight pointed nose and an angular face. His build was tall and very slender. I would say he seemed to be somewhere in his late sixties.

The feeling I got was that I had somehow gotten caught in his time and appeared to him as he was on his way to somewhere. Immediately I felt caught off guard as he also seemed surprised to see me. In response I quickly willed myself back to my body that was laying on the bed. When I could, I flung open my eyes checking on my bearings in the bedroom making sure I was home. I shook the feeling off and grounded myself a little thinking about my experience. After giving it a little thought, I thought I might see if I could try it again. This time I wanted  to make contact but it never happened as I fell asleep trying.

This morning when I awoke I forgot about the whole incident from the night before as my daughter and husband were having breakfast and I hurried out of bed to join them. Later I had a wonderful experience with a spiritual teacher who took some of her time to visit me at our home. I just can't tell you how excited I was to have the opportunity to visit and then sit down to take a class from her one-on-one. Not a lot of teachers do that, so I felt very privileged to have her come to our home. 

Monday

Dear Diary,

I have to say that even though my husband and I just got back from a trip we got a little cabin fever on Saturday and decided to take a long drive out in the county. We were both in the mood for an adventure and wanted to go out of our way to find a place that we hadn't seen before. The color of the trees changing for the fall only added to our great since of excitement that enhanced our appreciation for the season. As we drove I was very content as we followed winding roads taking extra time to stop at little shops while eating what ever we wanted.

Later in the afternoon on our drive home we got lost only to come upon a road that immediately gave me a strong sense of deja vu. I tried desperately to remember what it was that I had forgotten but it wouldn't come. It was only when I let my energy flow freely trying not to force my memory that my mind relaxed enough spitting out a very vivid memory of a dream that I had years ago.

It all came flooding back in great detail unfolding before me. I watched in fascination as the characters that participated in the dream come to life on the side of the road. The whole experience was a lot like watching a movie but I was apart of it just like I was in the dream driving by. All I could feel was astonishment as the memory of the dream and interacting with it was so real. My husband knew I was somewhere else as I told him about what was going on. After awhile he turned on the GPS to get back home. It was starting to get late and I needed to break from the dream.

When we got home we were greeted by over eager pets who were thrilled that we had decided to come back. They all followed us around the house the rest of the evening not letting us out of their sight. I don't blame them after our last trip. 

Friday

Dear Diary,

Well, we are back. I spent most of yesterday washing clothes, doing house work and catching up on emails. Our daughter who was watching the house and pets while we were gone was really glad that we were home. She said that there were those extra noises in the house that made her a little more alert along with the dogs barking at thin air. It all made her a little bit nervous because when she went to investigate there was nothing there. She said that the dogs would just randomly bark at the doors or corners of the house.

 I had to laugh as I knew that the spirits in the house were only making her welcome. Even now as I write a slender line of white smoke is shifting through the room making it's presence known. The feeling I get is that they are just stopping by to see who is in the house, mostly out of curiosity.

Well I think today is going to be a quite day so I will have the opportunity to catch up on editing the book. I am behind as I didn't touch it all on the trip. 

Wed "Imprints, Energy & Spirits"

Dear Diary,

I accompanied my husband at the beginning of the week to a conference in Las Vegas, NV. I hadn't ever been there before and was thrilled to get a little time away together. Our flight was extremely early but uneventful. I even had the opportunity to take a little nap on the way. With the daylight savings time along with the two hour difference our day was excessively long as we left at seven o'clock in the morning. We checked into our hotel at the Cosmopolitan and got him registered for his conference before ten am. We then spent the rest of the afternoon exploring the city waiting for the conference to began.

 Later that evening when I was in the room by myself I noticed that I was seeing small glimpsing of people in our room moving about. I even began to experience other people energies, and feelings as I unpacked our bags and was arranging the room. It was a different from the feeling I get when detecting spirits in the room. Curious I asked my guides what was going on and they explained that I was experiencing energy impressions that were left behind by the different people who had rented the room prior to us. Not wanting to receive information I opened my energy fields and flooded the room with my energy sending it out while cutting off any connection. When my husband returned from his meeting things were back to normal.

One of the big adventures is getting to see and visit all the different casinos. My husband and I don't gamble at all. Not because we are against it but for some reason it is not an interests of ours. But we do enjoy walking around, people watching and looking at all the lights. We also did a little shopping and eating, which the food is extremely good. At one point I was really enjoying myself when my heart began to race and I became very anxious. I was feeling like I needed to be somewhere and was in a big hurry to get some place. When I checked in with myself there was no reason for feeling that way. I used some energy methods trying to calm myself but the feeling wouldn't go away. Later when my husband was at his conference I checked in with my Akashic Records and asked the record keepers what had happened. They informed me that when we were out walking around I had left my energy fields open and by walking into all those casinos with so many people I had overloaded my energy fields picking up other people's energy. It wasn't until I cleared myself that I could calm down my racing heart and discard the anxious feeling. I did however recognize that I needed to be more careful.

My interaction with spirits has really not been a lot during our stay. I know they are out and about and they seems to be well aware of me. I have to say that I have not been really interacting with them until this morning. It all started yesterday as I was minding my own business and was working on a task on my computer in our room. I finished it forgetting about it as I was meeting my husband at a party that was put on by the conference. Afterwards since we were tired we went to bed early still having a little trouble with the time change. This morning I was awakened by a group of spirits who seemed to be very interested in what I was doing yesterday and preceded to talk while trying to interact with me. This was at 4 am and I was in no mood to talk. I ended up not being able to return to sleep and was a little annoyed  being sleep deprived. Now thinking about it, I guess I should be glad that someone on the other side has taken an interest in my work and wanted to put their two cents in.

All in all, I am ready today to return home today. Las Vegas is a wonderful place to visit and we have both enjoyed our time here a lot. The food is amazing and the people and the spirits here are extremely friendly. I do however have missed the kids and our pets a lot, along with our own bed. It is true what they say... "There is no place like home".

Monday

Dear Diary,

It has been a great weekend. I have had the unique opportunity to join a group of light workers who come together to network and share their individual gifts with each other. Also each of them not only teaches classes in their community but are also fellow writers. One of them is a published author who enjoys writing paranormal horror novels. The best part of that is that even though her books are fiction she uses her knowledge and experience as inspiration. I felt very inspired as I hope to publish my own book at the beginning of the next year.

We met for an afternoon and immediately enjoyed sharing our own experiences while supporting each other in our own journey. Even though we all had different kinds of interests in the many facets of light work, we all used the same vocabulary in defining what we do while sharing our knowledge of light work.

Later when I was home and I had some time to myself and decided to clear some old energy from my spirit bodies. What came up when I want through the process was the memory of a vivid dream that I had when I was at eight years old. The memory of being very upset was just as upsetting to me as if it had happened at that moment. The dream was about two people that kept slipping away from me. What was so frustrating in the dream was that I needed to share something with them but they couldn't hear me.

These two people actually ended up manifesting in my life many years later. As I looked at the faces in the dream they clearly matched these two people who I use work with. The irony of the whole experience not only in the dream but also in real life was that I did try to warn them about a certain outcome but neither one was interested in what I had to say.  I finally resigned from the group only to find out a year later through a friend that the two experienced what I was trying to prevent, creating a great deal chaos among their fellow coworkers and families. Even years later I heard from friends who are still left with the scar that has affected their spiritual work as they try to move on.

While looking back I have to wonder if the dream when I was eight was a warning to me, or a premonition of what was to come, letting me know that I was to participate in it.