Tuesday

Dear Diary,

I have been extremely busy trying to meet the dead line on the book edits for this weekend.  This morning I had a Reiki Client and this afternoon worked with someone in the Akashic Records. It has been a busy day but very rewarding.

One of the subjects that seems to come up a lot in conversations over the last few days are tears, holes, or rips in the energetic field. This can be a problem as spirit attachments, and other energies may invade a person's field. There are several exorcises that people can do to make sure this is not happening. Of course the best line of defense is to resonate in a positive, and loving frequency where the energy field is nourished becoming a strong barrier against attachments. Being human that is not always possible with our emotional encounters. Just driving home in traffic can topple that with any anger.

Some people will use white and blue light to repair the holes or surround themselves. One of my friends uses essential oils that help her to work on her fields. Prayers are great along with being conscious of what is going on in your own energy field. If you have an attachment then it is vital that you remember that you have the power to evict them not the other way around. If you are able to check your own fields then this is just as important as doing a breast, or prostate exam.  If you can't do this then have someone that you know who knows how to do this for you. Keeping healthy is not always about the physical but also is on the spiritual levels to.    

Sunday

Dear Diary,

It has been at least five days since I last wrote. We have been busy with Spring Break coming to an end. I have to admit that I have had a wonderful time with all the friends and family that we have enjoyed hanging out with.  The kids start school tomorrow so we are back on schedule.

I have to record that Thursday my husband and I both woke up only to discover that we had shared the same experience in our dreams. We ended up being at the same place at the same time on the other side. The best part of the whole experience is that it made an impression on Steve.  It's always nice when he gets that Wow moment.

Yesterday we had a funeral in the morning and a birthday party in the evening.  It has been like that since March hit with 6 birthdays, spring break and then the funeral. I have been so busy with enjoying the kids home from school but have neglected my writing.

At the funeral I was listening to the eulogy when I noticed the husband of our friend who had passed away standing next to the pastor. When his son stood up to speak he was right directly behind him listening attentively to what the son was saying about him. I don't know why I think it is funny when people show up for their own funerals. As I looked around the room taking a moment to myself I noticed that other people had different lights and spirits around them. Later I had time to catch up with what everyone is doing as it has been awhile since I have seen everyone in that group of friends from the church.

 This morning as I started to wake up I had a quick visit from my friend's husband who's funeral we were at along with my dog who passed away last October. It wasn't anything major just showing themselves in full view doing well. I knew from the visits that it was appreciated that we went yesterday and that we are thought of on the other side.  It was nice to say hi.

 Well, as I look at my schedule now I realize that I have one more week to finish the edits on the book to make my deadline. After today the last day of Spring Break I had better get busy! 

Wed. "Healing on Three Levels"

Dear Diary,

For the last few weeks I have been working on some dream time clearing. I have been blocked in an aspect of my life, and I wanted to find out why this was happening. I started first going into my dreams after I stated my intentions so that I could work with my guides to find the answer. What happened is that it took a few nights for me to discover what was going on.

My biggest break through began when I had a nightmare. This brought out my fears causing me some distress in my dream. In the dream I was able to discern while being shown that there were three obstacles in my life that I was working on as life lessons associated with my fear. Two of them I have been working on to master, but the third was something that befuddled me. The third was a fear that was deep rooted in my own DNA.  After I awoke I had so many questions so when I had time during the day I went into the Akashic Records to find some answers about this fear.

What I got was that since we are both physical body, and spirit we are more complex than we realize when we are looking for the root of our primal fears within ourselves. This is because all of our experiences in different parts of our being are all merged together in the human body.

One experience being of course the obvious created by our different experiences in this lifetime. The others are not so apparent. Another piece to the puzzle in finding those blocks can be from the soul's perspective from a past life experience that was merged into the physical body creating it's own program within the living tissue, and brain. The other side of this is what I call the sins of the father that is passed down through the DNA from generation to generation. This is really not a sin, but an experience that was recorded then passed down through DNA. It kind of reminds me of our appendix which is never used, but for some reason we all have one. So now as we work on ourselves we have to remember that we are multidimensional beings, and to heal we must treat our whole being on all levels seeing it from a much larger perspective.

Again looking at a fear based block we have to remember that it is rooted in our mind, body, and soul. The mind being this lifetime, the body in our DNA, and the soul from past lives. What I find interesting is that on all the many levels of the mind, body, and soul the same fear can be rooted in all showing up as completely different forms, and experiences in all three. Yet when looked at it is all the same fear.   

Saturday "The Illusion of Separation"

Dear Diary,

This weekend I was visiting with family and asked a question that I thought was good to bring up. One of my family members is a scientist and had some trouble with how the mind and spirit work together. My first response was that I remember in college when someone told me once that when the mind died that was it and we went into oblivion not to exist.  I do recall that it bothered me for a long time thinking that this was the only life that we had. It wasn't until I had my experience when I was ejected out of my body merging into a space of complete unconditional love that I understood in that moment that we even without a body never lose our conscious state of thinking even though it is no longer apart of the physical body.

I also was very disappointed that even when I was a part of everything I was still very much me only without the physical body.  In that experience I could see that everything was vibrating at different speeds all humming with the same frequency which I recognized as unconditional love. My whole spirit without a doubt knew this vibration at once. I also understood that everything was made up of this vibration frequency no matter what speed different things were vibrating at and it was all a part of one consciousness, and one thought. Everything we know was connected in that thought. I recognize this now as the mind of our Creator from whom nothing in the whole universe is separated.

I also discovered that I was still somewhat independent in my own experience. Then a thought hit me and as soon as it did I immediately plugged into the whole frequency which seemed to give me access to anything that I wanted to know with just one thought. It was like being linked to a super computer.  My father used to ask a question when I was growing up which was....Are we a drop of water in the ocean or are we the ocean? The answer is... We are both! While we are the drop of water which makes us unique we are still a part of the whole ocean. I see the ocean in this question representing our Creator or God. While we are never the whole ocean we are still a part of the ocean. Now with that knowledge I also understood that no matter what, we can never be separated for that would mean that we would be separated from ourselves which is very much connected to our Creator. Separation is only a illusion of this 3D plane of existence. How could this happen unless we pull our focus away from what we are even though we can't help being what we are? That means that separation is only an illusion.

Our human brains in our physical bodies help us simulate and separate everything to make some sense of this physical plane that way we can function in this 3D world of existence. Now we are not just seeing atoms bumping around at different speeds but have some kind of order in this world to function in. The only thing is that we take everything as being separate and experience our human experience as the drop of water forgetting that we are still a tiny part of the whole and one consciousness in the mind of God.

Wednesday "The Path"

While driving to an appointment the other day, I was gently reminded of my dad who had passed on a few year ago. But what was interesting was that I remembered accompanying my dad when he went to teach the "Warrior's way"  when I was very young. This was very important to him besides being an artist, sculptor, and writer.

 When my father and I were alone when I was growing up he told stories about learning how to focus on personal power, and mastering of the self.  One thing he really wanted me to learn was how to meditate. This was one of his practices and I would sometime join him. The trouble was I could never sit still or quiet my mind long enough to learn so I would often drop off to sleep or walk off with something else to do.

One of the things that we did was spend time working with the animals on our ranch both domestic and wild. Looking back I recalled him teaching me how to communicate by moving our energy levels to cretin points to not cause the animal fear or distress to match the animals energy so that we became one of them or invisible to them. He taught me how to track animals. I learned how to open up the heart expanding my energy to locate a lost animals which served me well when I went searching for kittens.

We talked to the rock people, cloud people, trees, snakes and watched the bugs move in patterns as they went about their lives. He told wonderful stories of spiders, creation and how the universe worked along with tracking stars and their patterns. Star gazing is a must if you live in the country without the lights of the cities.

My father was interested in energy of both the spirit and healing. He used to show me how to heal with my hands and all this was something I thought was to amuse me and keep me out of trouble. There are memories of his lectures and falling asleep in my chair with the lights on while he was talking only to be woken up when it was time to go.

I must admit thinking back that things were something that I didn't share with a lot of my family and friends. When my father and I were together we were in a different space. It took me years to discover what a blessing it all was to learn about working with energy and communicating with animals was in my own life as an adult. Part of my tutoring was to be aware and learn how communicate with all of the nature around me as it was all alive and apart of the one consciousnesses of our Creator.

Since my father was what some would call different as he followed the path of the Warriors way, and I grew up following the path of trying to fit in with all the other people being a wife and mom, we rarely saw each other as I got older. When we did it was always picking up where we left off as though no time had been lost in between.

Looking back now I am learning that all of what I learned can and is applied to healing and teaching. I found too, that instead of following the Warriors way like my father, I am more drawn to the path of the Adventurer whose focus is on love and harmony which fits me in what I do. From what I understand, the more you master either one of the two, you find it harder to distinguish one from the other because of how much it is really all connected.

Tuesday "The Light Body"

One of the many things that you will hear in the healing world is the term "light body". I know for a long time I got the concept of this but didn't actually understand what it really meant until I started to have these amazing series of experiences when I would close my eyes at night trying to fall into sleep. I would see these brilliant rays of the light that moved into my third eye that were breathtaking and blinding to say the least.

At first I was startled and would open my eyes trying to catch my breath almost afraid of closing my eyes not knowing what I would see but within a few nights of this I was able to keep my eyes closed while experiencing the intensity of the light. On a few occasions I would see a beautiful face smiling back at me as close to my face as possible.

I know that when the third eye opens people will have this type of experience
with the light but it was this being whom I felt was very close to me that made me realize that there was more to it than that. I had the great feeling of peace and that a guardian or angel was trying to show me that they were in my energy field.

It was much later that I understood that we are all like the being in which we are all created out of light that is just as brilliant. It is the density of matter that creates our bodies to live in this third dimension world. I remember being under the age of five laying in my bed at night trying to remember where I actually came from. I knew that I was not just my body and had forgotten something very important. It was so close to me remembering but I couldn't recall it.

I would lay there thinking I came from somewhere else and it was really good. But why had I forgotten? I didn't understand until one night it came that it wasn't important for me to remember at the time and so I let it go until that experience so many years later with the light.

Like so many others I had forgotten where I originally came from and like many had always believed that I was alone when the truth is that we are never alone. We are always surrounded by this massive amounts of love and loving guardians. And I remembered what I had forgotten so many years ago which is that we are truly the beings and creation of the Creator created in the same image.

I find that often we get stuck in this third dimension but our thoughts and memories are of the the world of energy and light. When we are stuck we send out all this fear, anger and anguish
creating this energy field of this low emotional turmoil that keeps us in fear. It is when we arise above this only to find that there is a higher energy field of pure love and light that our eyes open to what can really be achieved in this world.

Look around you today and see all this great fear that we have all created to live in! Then look deep within yourself and find that truth that was and is who you really are. We are all so beautiful! 

Monday

Dear Diary,

 I am still not a hundred percent from being ill. Friday a friend called me to read her Akashic Records, and I was a little worried that I wouldn't be able to do it because of still feeling very weak.  I checked in with my guides who reassured me that it would be fine. They said they would step in, and all I had to do was to show up. As soon as I opened the records a flood of peace, and calmness washed over me. Connection was instant allowing the reading to be a success. When I closed the records I resumed my state of feeling weak realizing that I was fine when I was in the energy of the records.

This weekend I had the privilege to go to dinner with my husband, and two of our dearest friends to the Catfish Plantation in Waxahachie, TX.  The Plantation is known for being haunted by at least three ghosts. One is a bride that was murdered in the 1920's on her wedding day. Another is a farmer who lived, and died there. The last was an elder women who lived there in the house, and passed away in 1970's. The food there was beyond good. Every bit was a sure delight. I didn't experience anything so I asked my guides why? They laughed, and said that I was really enjoying the company of our friends where my focus was concentrated on them. I have to admit that after being house bound, and in bed I enjoyed being out with Steve, and our friends.

Last night as my husband, and I sat in the living room watching the Oscars I noticed a lot of activity over our love seat when they did a tribute to all the people in film who passed over this last year. It was really nice to see that the ghosts in the house seemed to have an interest in the ones who passed. Before, and after that there was no activity in the house that I noticed.