Wednesday

Dear Diary,

I has again been a very quiet past few days. I have only seen a few sightings around the house but mostly in the bedroom when I was getting ready for bed. I only saw the white whiffs of smoke skirting around me and then making their way across the bed as if I were in their way. No one stopped to chat or even seemed to be curious so I didn't pay a lot of attention to them. I have woken up at midnight these last few nights and stayed up until three am but I didn't notice any activity. Tonight is a full moon so I hope that is what is waking me up. I am so ready for a good night sleep.

Yesterday I did however have a wonderful lunch date with a new friend who has also had her own experiences with the other side. I found our time together to be so freeing as we were able to share and discuss some of the things that have happened to us. It was a very bright spot in my day.

This weekend we will have my side of the family visiting for the fourth of July so it will be interesting to see how the ghosts who come to visit will respond. I do enjoy our time with everyone.

Photograph by Steve Noyce - Tuscany, Italy

Monday

Dear Diary,

I have to say with our daughter home this weekend it was really quiet except for yesterday when everyone went to the movies and I decided to stay home. I was alone enjoying my time alone with the pets and doing some light house cleaning. As I was tidying up the house I thought about some of the ghosts who have come through our home. I then made the statement out loud that it was a good time for me to talk to anyone who wanted to make themselves known. Right after I said that I stepped out into the kitchen and there in the doorway were two ghosts standing there not moving but staring directly at me.

It kind of surprised me that it happened so quickly and I averted my gaze only to be curious enough to look back at them. Sure enough they were still there not moving but continuing to watch me. I would describe these two as looking like a clear thick vapor on a hot road. I could see through them but it was distorted. One was taller than the other and I got the feeling that one of them was a child who stood closer to me. I greeted them realizing that I had asked them to make themselves known so I didn't want to be rude. In a welcoming voice I said out loud that I would be happy to talk with them but neither of them moved or made a sound. Okay I thought, have it your way, and I went about my cleaning in the other room taking a different route so not to disturb them.

When I came back into the kitchen they were still there as if no time had passed still standing in the same positions not moving. This made me wonder why they were there. When everyone came home from the movies the two ghosts were gone and I didn't see them again until I was climbing into bed.That is when I felt as if I was being watched and then saw the taller one staring at me from just inside the doorway of the bathroom materializing and then disappearing several times letting me know she was there. I gave up trying to communicate with her saying goodnight then turning out the lights and going to sleep. This morning I haven't seen either one of them.

Photographs by Steve Noyce - Tuscany, Italy

Friday

Dear Diary,

I am looking forward to the weekend. We don't have anything planned so it will be quiet around the house. As for the sighting of ghosts around me and the house it is just the usual. There hasn't been a lot of talking from them as of late mostly because I haven't been listening as I have had my mind on other things. That doesn't mean that I still don't catch glimpses of whiffs of white smoke every once in a while moving in and around the house where I am.

Yesterday as I was sitting down in the office working on sending out some emails someone brushed by me making themselves known. I let them know that I knew that they were there but needed to focus on what I was doing. I didn't run into them again until I was in the living room taking a small break picking up pet toys and again they brushed by me,
this time on my right side. Again I let them know that I knew that they were there but preoccupied with all the things that needed to be accomplished by the day's end taking over my thoughts. They left me alone after that...

Today is a better day to communicate as I am free to take the time to talk or work with anyone who wants to make themselves known. Also as the weekend ascends some of the stress of the week is already starting to lighten up giving me time to pay more attention to the other side.

Photograph by Steve Noyce - Tuscany, Italy

Wednesday

Dear Diary,

I was visiting the other day with a dear friend of mine and one of our adventures together was brought up as we revisited the past. This is one of my friends who I know I can call when can't see my way out of a storm. On that particular occasion I was needing help moving some things out of a space and she volunteered to help me. This was some years ago. The place was a church which had been having some activity at that time. On top of that we ended up having to go in the late evening because of syncing up schedules.

As it happened I was also grieving so I didn't think about our energy affecting what was going on around us. It took everything I had to keep focused on the task ahead. My friend who hears the other side discovered that she had multiple talents that evening when we went to engage in our task. I don't remember a whole lot of what was going on just moving things and getting really strange looks from my friend who seemed to be really uncomfortable. She was just wanting to help me and trying to get the project over with so we could go home.

It was later that she confided in me that when we went into the church she could hear the voices of children talking in the atrium. Then my sadness started attracting all kinds of attention from the other side who were hungry for that kind of lower level energy so when they found the source they tried to jump on me only to slide off. When they couldn't get to me they saw her and started to jump onto her as her fear of them started to come up from watching them around me. Ghosts and entities came out of nowhere. Because I was trying to stay focused on what I was doing the only thing I noticed that evening was a large dark black smokey mass passing the door in the hallway several times only to pause long enough to look in. Each time I saw it I threw out golden light energy towards the door and it would move on. When it did I went back into my grief and what I was doing.

We did finish the move and my friend told me what had happened after we left. It was much later when I asked my angel guides why the ghosts didn't attach themselves to me since it was my energy attracting them. They explained that I had completely shut down in my own grief and when I did, it closed my energy fields creating a barrier between them and me. My friend who witnessed it all didn't know what was going on and she was thrown into the thick of it. Because I was preoccupied with my own sadness I didn't see or help her. She was also blindsided and hadn't protected herself as our intention was to tackle a project which had nothing to do with ghosts. After we left she ended up taking some visitors home. Later we had to clear her and her home.

The reason I tell this story is that it explains a lot about our emotional energy attracting the other side and how important it is to be mindful of our own energy as our energy affects what comes into our lives. With this knowledge we also know we were not created to live with our all of our fields closed down as I had done when I was grieving. Even though it protected me during that time it also shut me in with my energy and anything else that was trapped inside it with me. This stops the natural process of letting things go so that we can move on. We as energy and physical beings were created to be open as all energy flows in and out as it moves through us to keep our bodies and souls healthy. The practice of learning how to be in the higher energy fields allow us to be invisible to the lower energy beings who can't find us when we are in the higher realms.

The other part of this story is that it is always good to also learn to protect ourselves when we are in those lower energy states so that we don't attract the lower energy side and don't expose others to that kind of torment. With the protection we don't shut our energy fields off but have a safe space to still release what needs to be let go of.

Photographs by Steve Noyce - Italy

Monday

Dear Diary,

It was a fun weekend with the children home to celebrate Father's day. Since it was hot and very humid we decided to go see a movie. After finding our seats and having a few minutes before the movie started I took advantage of that time to look around. It was then when I noticed down the aisle to my right two white smoky images moving toward some seats. It kind of caught me off guard but made me laugh out loud seeing them. I had forgotten how much the other side likes movies.

The only other time I saw ghosts this past weekend and was paying attention was when it was quiet in the house and we were sitting down hanging out in the living room. We had a man (ghost) come out of the dining room to the edge of the living room where he stopped as if only checking to see what we were doing. After seeming to fill his curiosity he went back into the dining room. I have not seen him around before so he is a new.

The ghosts tend to come and go and some don't stick around very long. I usually don't ever see them again after they leave except for our family who have passed but they also come and go. Sometimes they just are there letting us know they are around or they will contact us in some way when there is need for it. My grandmother, when she is around, we can feel her presence
and she always leaves dimes in the strangest places. It is her way of getting our attention when she is with us and we aren't paying attention. My dad leaves pennies which has a personal meaning between my mom and him. He also likes to show up when you least expect it. Once I thought it would be funny to sneak up on someone and surprise them as a joke. Just as I was about to pounce I heard him in my right ear say very clearly all three of my names in a very serious tone. It just Ruined the moment! In fact it all backfired and I was the one surprised!

Photographs by Steve Noyce - Tuscany, Italy

Friday

Dear Diary,

I woke up in the middle of the night with the intense feeling as if someone was standing next to the bed. When I finally opened my eyes it felt as if someone had crushed all of my bones. I rolled over and woke my husband up who touched my forehead. He quickly got up and found a thermometer taking my temperature that registered 102 degrees. In a daze I gratefully accepted the Tylenol and water that he offered. Then after a while he came back to bed finding a comfortable position facing the other way and falling asleep.

I laid there in the dark trying desperately to go back to sleep but still had the sensation that someone was watching me on my side of the bed. I didn't want to open my eyes still hoping that sleep would mercifully take me away. Then I heard a voice that wasn't my husband's say, "There now, you will feel better." In my mind I acknowledged that someone was in the room then fell into a deep sleep, sleeping through the rest of the night. This morning when I awoke the fever had broken and my husband was getting ready for work. After checking on me he left and the house seemed quiet except for the pets who were letting me know they were ready for breakfast.

Photograph by Ana - Tuscany, Italy

Wednesday

Dear Diary,

Well, it has been really quiet around the house. I haven't noticed as much activity as we had over the weekend which makes me wonder if it has anything to do with the new moon last night. One thing I can say is that with all the rain this morning its has been very peaceful around the house. Even the pets went back to their beds after breakfast.

Yesterday I did have one visitor coming in and out of my office but only when I was working at the computer. A long thin white smoky image would appear and disappear a foot away to the right of my screen. They never showed themselves longer than a second but it kept happening so I wasn't able to ignore them. I knew someone was there as that old feeling of being watched washed over me as I tried to concentrate on my work. The whole time I sensed it wasn't me that they were interested in but what I was writing. It wasn't until I stopped working that they finally left and I didn't have any other contact with them after that.  

Photograph by Steve Noyce