Friday

Dear Diary,

My friend Robin has gone on the roof today to raise 100,000 pounds of food to create awareness of the ways people can help with hunger in the world. I was so excited to be there with her and everyone who gathered this morning to pray and watch her ascend to the roof top. I wish her all the luck! This year I have other obligations with lots of family so I wont be able to attend the rest of the event. I am very happy for her as she has an amazing team helping her get the event off the ground this year.

I have noticed that I am having a lot of trouble focusing and staying grounded after I left the event. For some reason I can't seem to stay in my body for very long today. I keep finding myself in other places having to find my way back. I understand it as my guides explained today while I was out, and about that it is called Spirit Walking. They reminded me that I am used to the other side coming to visit me, but sometimes we can leave our body to go visit them. Today seems to be one of those days as I have been trying to focus my mind on things in the physical plane to stop it. I may try some grounding oil, but I have to remember where I put it.

I also noticed that for some reason people's energies are intense today. I felt almost assaulted by what people were feeling, or thinking when I was at the store today. I don't think that people realize how much they affect others or the environment when they are walking around open like that.

Thursday "Separation By Words

Dear Diary,

It has been a busy week again. I got to work on one of my clients this week with Reiki which always makes me happy as I can feel the energy move through me. I even got to have lunch with a new friend, and we had quite the interesting conversation. I don't always tell people what I do as often it is not the right time, or it can make things a bit awkward  after I open up. It was somewhere in our conversation that I told her that I do energy work, and about working with the guides. For more than ten minuets there was an awkward silence as I let her processes what I had just told her. I could feel her energy moving through what I said, and what I do trying to figure out if she was okay with it. After awhile we started to talk again. I knew she was curious, but sometimes telling everything is not always a good move.

 She asked me about my book, and wanted to know what it was about.  I have to admit that I loved writing my book, and love talking about it. I told her it was about my life, and the adventures that I have had with the supernatural. The good thing was that she was open to what I was talking about after some thought as she has had some training on her own that she could compare it to. It was here religious practices that had held her back, but when we visited we found that we had a lot more in common.

 I told my new friend the story of when I was teaching one day speaking about the Holy Spirit as I do have a Christian background, and that is a language that I use. A women came up to me after the class letting me know that she was highly offended that I used those words to describe the Spirit. She was unhappy with the church, and politics that she associated with it. After talking to her I knew she, and I were on the same page as far as what we understood, and experienced. It was our words that separated us. She left still angry, and I asked my guides if they knew what just happened. They said that she had been hurt by a religion, and that even though she knew the Holy Spirit, and understood she associated the words with the pain. The guides explained that there was nothing I could do, but she was working on it.

This experience also happened once again when I was talking to a new pastor. I have talked, and have many friends who are pastors, but this one was doing his first year as pastor of a church. As fate would have it I ended up being a position where it was necessary to talk to him about what I do, and in it the conversation it started to create some fear. Again I was lucky to have my guides surround me while we were visiting reassuring me as we talked that we were both talking about the same exact experiences. The only thing that separated us were the words we used to describe what we were talking about.

This made me more aware as I spoke to my new friend who smiled back at me as we talked more about our spiritual experiences, and how we used our words. As I was driving her back to her work she explained to me that she got it. She understood what I did, and how it fit in with her own experiences. I wondered later how many wars, and how many people have lost their lives when we find ourselves separating ourselves with our words. Fear takes us down so many rabbit trails, and yet we all have that connection, and the spark of the Creator within us.

Tuesday "Balance of Communication on Both Sides"

Dear Diary,

I think one of the challenges of being able to communicate with the other side is talking to some people about it. Sometimes it is like leading a double life. On one hand you have these amazing experiences not only with the spirits, and supernatural that is all around you. But you also have the other experiences which I have heard being labeled as mystical experiences. It is these experience where you have that soul connection with the Creator as you merge into everything, and everything is a part of you that there is no room to doubt that God exists. In those moments you find that the magnitude of God being more omnipotent is far more than the  human brain can even comprehend. Yet you have an understanding on that cellar, and spiritual level that everything, and anything exists in the one mind of God. This is transmitted in every part of your being which makes being human complicated.  These times are when you have to remember how limited your physical body, and mind really are to even grasp your experience only to know on a soul level that it is true.

Then on the other hand there is living day to day on the physical plane of existence. That is the true challenge as the world on the physical realm has lost some of the sensitivity to the other side as we all try to survive, or just live our normal lives. Many spiritual teachers will explain that it is a true balance of the two that creates wholeness within ourselves. I find that most of the time I am tipping over more on one side as my focus swings from one end to the other. There are those time when everything is in balance, but then something happens on one side, or the other that needs more attention creating an unbalance once again. I am still working on myself, and learning how to balance this in my own life.

I find that when my focus is on my physical life I have many loved ones in my life who support me, and we are all there for each other. When my focus swings to the other side again there are many angels, guides, and loved ones who are there to support, and care for me, to help the ones that need help. It is that part of coming into transition when you are with people on the physical plane that are not as sensitive to the other side that makes it difficult, at least for me. I have a hard time..... I have been told not to throw the whole kitchen sink at them instead of explaining how to turn on the water first. My enthusiasm often scares people so I am now tending to hold back waiting for my guides, or that person to give me a clue that they are wanting to know what is happening around them. I find this sometimes a challenge. This is that part of you that wants to run the race at full speed, but you have to hold back to make it to the finish line. I still have a lot to learn...

Friday

Dear Diary,

It has been quiet even though there has been some activity in the house as you walk through rooms. Tonight I noticed a white smokey mist darting in and out of sight. I realized I was thinking about one of my family members who passed away awhile ago and that is when I saw the white smokey mist move past me. I got the message that they were letting me know that they were there as I was thinking about them.

Just the other day while I was driving in my car a white smokey mist passed right by me inside the car. It was only an inch away from my face as they made themselves apparent that they were there.  I made sure that I acknowledged them letting them know that I  knew that someone was there. I kept on driving smiling to myself as I know they were just trying to get my attention. That was all that happened and as I listened to the radio I forgot about the encounter as I was distracted with my errands for the day.

In most cases if they want to connect they can let me know that they need to talk like the lady who passed away and kept coming to get my attention. Sometimes it is just enough to let them know I know they are there. Sometimes I get a smoker in my car but that has not happened in awhile which makes me car sick.

I am looking forward to the weekend as our family will be together again at home enjoying the holiday. It will be fun just being with each other. My time passes so quickly.   

Wednesday "Contact at the Memorial"

Dear Diary,

I did get the message that I needed to attend the memorial from the spirit of the lady who has been trying to contact me. Yesterday I went really not knowing what to expect. I decided to open up my records as I dove there in case I needed help, or was in some way blocking myself. I walked in, and found my seat in the back still was not sure why I needed to be there except she wanted me to come. When I saw her picture memories of sitting once with her in the atrium there at the church talking about our love for animals, and people exploded inside my heart. In that moment I could feel myself open up, and when I asked if she was there I heard very clearly, "I am right here".

That is when I asked why she wanted me to come, and she showed me an image of her in the hospital hooked up on so many different things laying there in pain. Then she said that she found herself outside of of her body inside a beautiful light where there was no pain, and only unconditional love. There in that moment she let go, and started to merge with the light. The light accepted her, and welcomed her home. It was then that she heard her family crying wanting her to come back to them. That is when she realized that she wanted them to know she was okay, and it was time for her to go. I could feel her energy which was very loving free of pain as she kept showing me how she could move around with no boundaries. Then she excused herself sitting with her family for the rest of the memorial loving on them.

I couldn't help sitting there watching her with her family wondering how I was going to relay the message. As I sat there thinking the family got up to share their memories, and their love for her. What struck me was that the family described this bubbly beautiful spirit exactly the way I was seeing, and experience her, and her energy. One of the family members even gave a description on how they felt she had gone into the light, and it was exactly what she had told me. I knew then that the family in their own way knew her, and they knew what had happened. When the funeral was over she came back over to me, and said goodbye. Then she was gone. Since I had my records open I asked my guides if I was supposed to give a message to the family, but they told me to, "wait". When it was over I visited with a friend who was there confessing that I wasn't getting that I needed to tell the family as they already seemed to know what had happened.

Later driving home I asked again in my records if I needed to tell the family what I had gotten still not knowing how to approach them about what I do. Then I heard my guide in a clear voice letting me know that I was there to witness, and to remember as one day later on I will come back in contact with the family, and it will naturally come out what had happened at the funeral. Until then I was to be patient, and not worry about it now, but know that I was there for a reason. 

Monday

Dear Diary,

 Weekends have really been busy with family lately and Friday when I was about to make contact with a spirit the sound of my husband opening the garage door coming home from work broke the connection. Unfortunately I was not able to make contact after he came home for the weekend. The rest of the weekend my focus was busy with friends, kids, family, and our animals. Last night when I was in the living room I saw her moving through the room again. There was no communication only the feeling that there will be a connection made when we get closer to her family gathering together.

I know that there seems to be a lot of rules that people have written about when a spirit will contact you, but I have discovered that they will find a way to communicate when there is a need to get a message across. I know as a communicator that there is that need. For now I will wait for her to make the connection.

Friday "Contact"

Dear Diary,

I have been working on a project with one of my close friends. We have been so busy planning and working with other people that by the time the evening comes I have been exhausted. Last night my daughter wanted to watch a movie and I was happy that I didn't have to do anything but sit there and watch. As we started the movie I noticed someone standing directly in my energy field. They flashed in and were out before I could read or make any connection. During the movie that happened again four other times.

I was so tired that I told whoever it was that I would make contact with them when I finished the movie and was going into twilight. The only trouble was that once the movie finished I fell asleep as soon as I hit the pillow and never went into twilight consciously. Later today I was finishing up invitations for an the event I am helping out with when I got an email that someone that I used to know had passed away yesterday. I knew as soon as I read the email that was who was trying to make contact with me. It was like the ringing of a bell that resonated all through my body. There was no doubt. I finished up what I was doing then took a break to talk to a friend who also knew the person who died. I told her what had happened the night before and that I knew I needed to be open for contact if that person has a message.

As I write this someone is crossing the room and even now coming up to me. She is here.......