Friday, December 31, 2010


This morning I got up and visited with my husband drinking my cup of hot tea and just enjoying the morning. We sat in bed and he began to work on his laptop and I decided to watch a little TV and enjoy the rest of my tea and found a movie that I had been trying to finish this whole holiday season called "Love Happens"

I got in on the last 10 min which is where I left off a few days ago. What was interesting is that it is about a Grief speaker helping people and it was ending with him discovering something in himself. What touched me was the relationship between him and his father in law. Just before I noticed my eyes were wet and my heart opened up to the touching scene and this warm energy shot through the core of my being with this amazing feeling of it moving out through my skin.

The emotion was so beautiful and the heat that moved through my body and out into my outer energy field was loving and healing at the same time. I took a moment to stop and be aware of what was happening to me. This is something we all experience but mostly we are unaware as our emotions are so powerful that they move outside of ourselves and effect others.

Smiling to myself I felt good about how we all feel when we hear music, watch a move or experience a piece of art. It is powerful as it moves the energy around us and brings it alive.... Now the trick is to be able to focus all of that powerful energy in a loving and healing way toward others to help bring healing in our world...... The connection is through the heart!

Monday, December 20, 2010


Dear Diary,

I am finding that I am learning a lot when I am working in my dreams. I do have to ask for information just before sleeping and then I get the answer either in my dream or when I wake up. Lately I have been busy with family during this holiday season. It has been a joyous occasion with everyone in town.

I am finding a lot of pennies today and feel like my dad is close by watching all that is going on. The other night was the eclipse and I was planning to sleep through it unless I awoke and then I would go outside to see it. Sure enough the eclipse started at 2:30am our time and my dream ended and I woke up at 2:40am. I did not want to get out of bed but I kept hearing that I needed to see this and it would be quick.

I drug myself out of bed and asked my husband if he would like to see it to. He did and so did our daughter who was visiting for Christmas. Wow.... it was worth it and I am glad that I woke up to see it. My son slept through it as he told us to go away....

Talking to my friends they were woken up around the same time and they also decided to go out and look at it. Something going on?

Sunday, December 19, 2010


Dear Diary,

I can't believe it has been a full week since I last wrote. I have been dreaming again this week. This last dream was about me getting away from things and walking by a lake with lots of people around. I don't remember exactly where it was but I saw some shops and went in one to look around. The lady who greeted me I knew her from another dream that I had and we talked about he store which had an unusual name called the "Buddha's Thumb".

I remember talking to her and discussing about the last time I met her in another dream. She laughed and we went on to talk. That morning when I awoke I told my husband about the dream and described her long gray hair and facial features. The dream was so vivid that I thought it would have be nice to meet someone like her in my waking world.

Later in the day I was working on some beading projects and ran out of the findings to finish the pieces that I was working on. I went to the "Artful Bead" in Fort Worth TX and there sitting at the table talking to some of my friends was the lady in my dream. My mouth was gapping and I babbled "I dreamed about you! What were you doing in my dreams" She replied, "Astral Projecting!" I laughed and said, "I don't know you so how could you do that"? She agreed and I sat down to visit.

She was making some beautiful purses with beading and looked like medicine bags. We talked and in the middle of one of the sentences she said, "deja Vu!" and said, Yes, I am sewing and you are working with the rocks and OH... what you just said, triggered my memory.... I dreamed about you and meeting you here and having this conversation!" "I remember now!"

I asked her about her life and our lives seem to run parallel in many ways. With Holidays coming in this next week I told her that we need to get together and talk after the holidays and families return home. We have much to discuss!

Friday, December 10, 2010


Dear Diary,

I have been busy working with getting the new Healing Circles off the ground this past few weeks. I guess since I last wrote I have not experienced a whole lot since I have been so focused on the circles.

I did notice a few things however that happened a few nights ago when I was working in my records and forgot to close them. I fell asleep but before I drifted off I was wondering about my reaction to some people in my life and how that effected the way I responded to them. As I was just on the edge of sleep I began to see some past events in my life that I remembered that were really uncomfortable and I realzied it was because of this few incidents in my life that I reacted the same since.

I also recognized that I no longer believed the belief that was attached to the event and even felt like it was a lie. Someone in my dream state was showing me these events and explaining how I miss interpreted the situation since I was very young but I carried these feelings and events through my adulthood. I remembered saying, "That is why I act like that?" "That is where I got that!!" "I release this!"

It was amazing as I began to understand that it was only a belief and that I did not have to believe the things that might hurt my relationships with others in this life. Then I guess I fell asleep and when I awoke I felt a change in myself and a new feeling of letting go to some very old beliefs. It was later in the day that I realized that I had not closed the records and that the event was for my highest good. Beautiful to know that help is aways near by.